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Sept 5, 2016 22:07:19 GMT -5
Post by slimkim on Sept 5, 2016 22:07:19 GMT -5
Also thinking I might go to the RSPCA and get a cat since I can't have a dog. Not a kitten since I had one of them once before and it was hard work. Just an older quiet moggie who'll sleep all day and be able to defend itself at night. Just an idea anyway.
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For Kim
Sept 6, 2016 1:55:02 GMT -5
Post by quitat54 on Sept 6, 2016 1:55:02 GMT -5
Hi Kim
Keeping a diary is a good idea. It is always interesting to look back and get a perspective on how we felt when we did and why. Also it helps to stay focused and monitor your progress. I have a cat, they are good pets and do not need as much attention as dogs. Best of luck to you.
J
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Sept 6, 2016 5:35:17 GMT -5
Post by slimkim on Sept 6, 2016 5:35:17 GMT -5
Hey J, Thanks for your message. It was very uplifting and positive.
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Oct 3, 2016 23:51:40 GMT -5
Post by slimkim on Oct 3, 2016 23:51:40 GMT -5
There is noone on here anymore. Obviously you people who I thought were friends have decided to desert me. Who cares anyway? I don't know why I am even bothering to post this. I supported you but now none of you are supporting me.
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For Kim
Oct 3, 2016 23:52:38 GMT -5
Post by slimkim on Oct 3, 2016 23:52:38 GMT -5
This site is a load of shift anyway so why should I even care?
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Post by Pam on Oct 4, 2016 1:55:52 GMT -5
I think since so few people are posting and asking for support, most people are just dropping in . . . once in a while to check the site's activity.
Everyone cares and I hope you realize that. Write everyone a note and let them know . . . what's going on in your world.
The more proactive you are . . . the better. Let your peers know where you are in your sobriety/what state you're in today. You can do so on the forum, via email, etc.
I don't know if you're resolute and need a bit of support because you've got so many days of sobriety and you're detoxing. . . . Are you just feeling plain crabby . . . because months of sobriety does not equal resolved issues? (You already know that it doesn't work that way.)
Don't forget all of the posts your peers have left you. Do you remember all of the support you received in Dry July and all of the other posts your peers have left to encourage you? I'm sure you've reread them.
Also, while you wait for someone to respond, perhaps you could . . . let them know what you've learned from each of them and consider sharing how much their advice helps.
*I know you're not in the mood for advice, but I think some members would appreciate your note.
**Take care of yourself Kim.
***I hope the voice you hear as you read this is that of a peer who is concerned and wishes you well.
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Oct 4, 2016 22:20:51 GMT -5
Post by jeyu0422 on Oct 4, 2016 22:20:51 GMT -5
Hi Kim, As Pam has written, some of us check in periodically to see if there are any new posts. I also check the forum to catch up on the inspirational quotes that Pam posts and to see the amazing pictures that she shares. Communication goes two ways, here and everywhere. If you are not posting, then how do you expect anyone to respond to you? I think you will receive help and communication here if it is desired and requested. I wish you well. Mark
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Post by slimkim on Oct 5, 2016 0:06:27 GMT -5
Sorry everyone. I was having a bad day. Thanks for replying guys I've been sober for a while and feel like I am going completely mad. I just logged in to delete those posts. Actually hanging on by the fingernails not to take another drink. I didn't expect it to be this hard.
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Post by jeyu0422 on Oct 5, 2016 7:36:40 GMT -5
Hi Kim, No apology is necessary. It if far better to take out your frustrations here than to pick up another drink. I have done the same thing more than once. Yes, sobriety is a very difficult thing to achieve, but the cravings will eventually go away, and the rewards are plentiful in the long run. How long have you been without alcohol and how are things going in your life? Mark
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Post by slimkim on Oct 5, 2016 9:25:09 GMT -5
Hey Jeyu, Its been a long hard 3 weeks without alcohol. The sleep deprivation is killing me or I just feel like it is. I'm so tired I can barely manage to go out. If I take another drink I'm in a coffin. Its taken a lot to come back from my last relapse. I'm just filled with anxiety and fear all the time. This post probably doesn't even make sense.
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Oct 5, 2016 20:37:19 GMT -5
Post by jeyu0422 on Oct 5, 2016 20:37:19 GMT -5
Hi Kim, Sorry for the delayed response but I had a long day at work. Your post makes complete sense to me and would to many others who have been in your shoes. Three weeks is a very tough period. How are you doing at the moment? Did you make it through the last 11 hours without drinking?
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Oct 5, 2016 20:53:27 GMT -5
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Post by slimkim on Oct 5, 2016 20:53:27 GMT -5
Hey Jeyu, I managed to make it through. I got a few hours sleep when it was daylight. Thanks for your support and Pam as well. It means a lot.
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Oct 5, 2016 21:54:09 GMT -5
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Post by jeyu0422 on Oct 5, 2016 21:54:09 GMT -5
Kim,
I don't know how religious you are, but breaking alcohol addiction will make many individuals, myself included, reach out for anything or anyone who might help; a higher power. I'm reminded of a verse in an old song, "Fire and Rain" by James Taylor. I'll try to find the exact words. Found them.
"Won't you look down on me Jesus You've got to help me make a stand You've just got to see me through another day My body's aching and my time is at hand And I won't make it any other way."
I have told you many times that after years of quitting, I made my last time the LAST time, because I knew in my heart that I could never go through it again. Maybe you are ready to make this time work for you.
Mark/Jeyu
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Post by Pam on Oct 6, 2016 0:44:30 GMT -5
Hi Kim, I'm glad you decided to log back in and share. Three weeks without a drink is great. Have you talked to your doctor about your insomnia? I know you realize that it is a factor in your effort to maintain your sobriety. Don't allow your fatigue to hinder your recovery. Allowing it to do so is kind of like . . . letting your guard down. It's so important to make the decision and just as important to take care of yourself. Eat well. Get enough rest. Exercise. Be mindful of your moods. Share as needed. . . . You're doing just fine Pam
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Oct 6, 2016 13:40:23 GMT -5
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Post by slimkim on Oct 6, 2016 13:40:23 GMT -5
Thanks Pam for your kind message. I managed to make it through another day sober. I'll try a walk once the sun comes out. I actually slept pretty well last night. I think I was just exhausted. Thanks Jeyu as well I've been praying a lot to a higher power and it seems to be helping.
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