Two nights in a row without a drink. I can't remember the last time that happened.
I'm so irritated with people. My micro managing boss is on my nerves again. I don't want to be anywhere near her today because I might give her a dirty look or say something that I shouldn't. Whenever that happens, she always says, "we'll talk later." I don't want to talk to you damnit.
The news makes me so aggravated too. All these shootings, nothing changes. New Zealand did something within the next week or so after their mass shooting. I don't really have an opinion on guns, but something has to be done.
Morning Scarlet. Two days without drinking is great! Being irritated is a part of withdrawals. It is your brain wanting to do a fight or flight reaction which is waking up from being booze free. That is a huge battle that is hard to control and will want to make you drink. While getting sober I had to focus on understanding what withdrawals would cause and that helped me a lot. I do believe their are posts on here about withdrawals. Headaches, stomach butterflies and nausea, sleeplessness, shaking, emotional upsets and depression and then there is the anger. I was mad about everything!!!!! Going through all those things and trying to pull it together at work took lots of self control. There is a upside to controlling your anger though, it gives you confidence that you can control your drinking too! I hope you thought about writing your thoughts down, it really will give you a big release. Reading, exercise, a warm bath, listening to music and even cleaning were things I did to help release my racing brain from Anger. I sure did have a clean house lol. Yes there is a lot of crap going on in this world and it makes me just shake my head. We have a saying that is so true in AA that I told myself over and over every day. (God grant me the Serenity, to accept the things I can not change, Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference). We can't worry about the world or what other people think. We have no control of that. We can only control ourselves in the moment. Funny thing I noticed was what I was feeling would change from moment to moment. Again that is a strength being developed that drinking has controlled. Keep this in mind, if you want a drink do not react to your thoughts. Give yourself an hour, think about your 2 days you put behind you. Think about the good things that will happen when you have your life back. Think about the things I mentioned to distract you. Before you know it your want to drink will pass. That is why I said I take one minute at a time, one hour at a time and one day at a time. Soon others will see the difference in you because you will be happy and in control. Believe me your drinking was not a secret and you may get some strange reactions from others. Happy 3rd day of no drinking! Hugs Clue
One thing I enjoyed when bored was I created a dream board on my P.C. I filled it with things I love and my goals. I have it today and I love seeing that I have reached many of my dream.
Last Edit: Aug 6, 2019 11:55:24 GMT -5 by igotaclue
Congratulations, Scarlet! Yep, the news is very depressing, but you can always employ a ‘what if’ strategy. When I got to a point of really feeling sorry for myself, I would imagine situations that I could find myself in that were much worse than the present. What if I were in an El Paso Walmart? What if I were an illegal immigrant, not knowing if, without warning, I would be picked up and deported? The examples go on infinitely. It always brought me down to earth. What if I could actually turn these two days without alcohol into three? The previous examples made it seem a little easier. Mark/Juyu.