Hey J A brand spankin new thread for you. Sure you could've done it yourself but I figured since all I'm doing is listening to football I might as well do something for someone else. I hope you are doing ok.
I greatly appreciate. Just read you drowning thread. You are very thoughtful and caring person. Not a bad writer to top it off.
It has been 5 weeks for me now being sober after going on a 4 day bender. I am doing good. Feel strong and determined as ever to stay sober. I do enjoy being sober. I have been very busy and have not visited this site for a while. It is good to see so many posts. Trying to catch up while watching Green Bay and Seattle. Great match up.
Its great to see you back. Congratulations on 5 weeks. That's really excellent. You are gaining momentum and I can see it in the words you write. Its always amazing to me how different people sound so quickly after eliminating booze from their lives. Sure, down times will still happen, that's just part of life no matter who you are. Its what we do with ourselves during those tough times that determines our course long term. I hope you can continue to find some time to contribute here. You are an inspiring guy with much to offer people around here.
Post by achilles1957 on Sept 21, 2015 18:13:28 GMT -5
Hi J and All, Great to see you back J .. Brett's spot on, you are inspiring in your writing and also your determination.
A four day bender heh, I too have been a four dayer in the past, feels like a long time ago now but .. "Lest we forget". I don't think my dear ol' body could take any more abuse than four days, it would just shut down and reject the poison. The memory of those horror days are what keeps me determined not to repeat past delusions that "this time I'll be more powerful". Not sure if I've ever really believed that to be true but denial has played a huge role in my self-abuse.
So glad you are back and hope to read more from you.
Thank you all. It is kind of strange but this time I hardly think about drinking. I am going through a bit of a health scare. Having to go through some tests and awaiting results. Before, my first impulse would be to escape to alcohol, to drawn in oblivion and self pity.
I am not so naïve to believe that those urges will not come back. But I have been able, so far, to eliminate any romantic thoughts regarding alcohol and drinking. It is a poison and absolutely unnecessary for our bodies and minds. Some are able to ingest it in small quantities, for whatever reason, and some of us, alcoholics, alcohol abusers, perhaps due to our life situation, genetic predisposition or some other cause, are unable to control how much or how often we drink, which leads us to miserable consequences.
Anyway, right now I don't have any urges to fight, and when they come, hopefully I will be able to deal with them being cognisant during that urge-craving state, that this is only temporary and benefits of not giving into temporary impulse are on the other side of the craving and worth enduring the temporary discomfort.
Hey J, I'm going through a health scare as well so can relate to what you are saying. I agree with you that cravings are a temporary impulse. I've had a few days of bad cravings and paced the house one day for half the day. Yesterday I only had a few fleeting thoughts. For me, its really not worth giving in to because the health problems only get worse. I had a friend I met in AA who was in and out of hospital with problems yet was still drinking and I thought how crazy is that? Its good that you've managed to eliminate the romanticizing the drink. Hope you keep posting so we can chat more as we seem to be going through similar things.
I hope you are holding off any cravings. Your friend's experience shows how crazy the alcoholism really is. We know that we are hurting ourselves yet we continue to drink. There is no rational explanation for that. I believe that early stages ( which you and are in) are difficult. I hope to continue my sobriety and achieve long term which would lead to ultimate freedom. I know form my smoking addiction experience and from the words of "old timers" that it gets easier as you build sober equity. I hope to arrive one day at the mind state I have regarding smoking. Meaning I could care less, don't think about it, don't have any cravings ever. Am absolutely free. It took me 3 years of persistent effort to finally succeed and stop smoking for ever. So I intent to be determined and patient with my alcohol addiction.
Hey J, I am holding off cravings pretty well at the moment. Sometimes I get a thought of 'I need a drink fast' but that soon passes. I think if you can give up smoking you can give up alcohol. The process is kind of the same: not giving into cravings by using distraction and basically anything I can find to get through it. Atm I'm busy fighting smoking cravings but I'm not stupid enough to believe that the alcohol is gone forever. I think you are definitely going to make it J, your determination is good.