Post by quitat54 on Aug 20, 2016 21:35:55 GMT -5
I celebrated my one year being sober this past week. It was just another day where I did not wake up with a hangover and did not go to bed drunk. I managed to string 365 days of doing exactly that. The paradox of sobriety for former alcoholics is that we are always 1 drink away from falling back to abyss - regardless whether we have been sober for a week or a year, as it is the case with me.
Of course, psychologically and emotionally I feel so much stronger now, than I felt one week into my sobriety. When I was struggling to stop drinking the thought or not being able to drink - ever, frightened me. I used to think that I would not be able to enjoy holidays, celebrate my good days or drown my misery of bad days. I did not believe that life without alcohol could be enjoyable. More stable, perhaps, but not as fun as life with a drink. Well, I learned differently. I enjoy my sober life. I don't miss drinking. On the contrary, when I see people drinking I look at them with anxiety or with compassion. Although I don't want to drink and I don't think about it, I am always vigilant, and in general avoid bars, or situations if there is a lot of drinking. Feel strong and confident, but don't want to let my guard down or tempt faith needlessly.
I always remember Mark's story how he went with his grandson to throw pebbles to avoid any further urge to drink and deal with immediacy of what was in front of him. I have learned over the past year that these urges are temporary, and we don't let them take us over but let them go, and they disappear. And, as time progresses, they are less frequent and lose their strength.
This is what I would offer as most important advice to newbies. But of course we don't have them on this forum anymore. And this is sad. Many of you helped me so much in my journey to sobriety, with your wisdom and sharing of your experience. I wish more people who straggle with alcohol could stumble onto this forum, share their experiences and support each other. I guess this is a form of AA without its rigid rules and without necessity of leaving your own home. I mean shared experience and support of individuals who have gone or are going through similar challenges.
Thank you or for all the support and hope that all of you, as is my intention, can drop by here from time to time and say how you are doing.